Get off my back

You know, lately I feel like I just don't have any free time at all. Sure working 6 days a week doesn't help, but it's not like i'm working challenging jobs or anything. It just seems that i'm in this horrible loop of existence. My only day off is usually spent recovering from destroying my insides with alcohol the previous night and it is really taking a toll on me mentally and physically. I don't know who I am trying to fool in thinking that I can still get drunk on a friday night and get up for work at 7:30 the next morning and not be a complete retard all day. It's definitely time to hibernate for the winter and cut down on my 3 or 4 nights of self medication. I'm going through a tough time right now and drowning my problems with cheap beer is not solving anything. Wow, this shit is getting depressing and that's not what I was going for.

I want to take a minute and discuss a few things that really piss me off. 1) Public transit. I don't even know where to start, I mean it is a very convenient way to get around the city, but my fuck is it ever dreadful. One thing I really hate is the people who think the transit system is there specifically just for them, like the other day when I was on the bus to work and of course I was running late and this shit seems to always happen when you're running late. Just as the bus is pulling away from one of its stops, this jackass runs at the bus with his arms flailing around like he was on fire or just witness someone getting gangbanged by priests and the bus driver stops for him, which is fine because most people do that. What really angered me was he steps on the bus with one foot still outside and starts asking the bus driver all these questions. Now, I had no idea what he was saying, nor did I really give a shit because when i'm on the bus I always have my headphones on so I don't have to deal with the Donnie Depressos and Eugene Ugmos that make up 98% of public transportationists. Where was I? Oh yeah, so after about 3 minutes of the bus not moving and this pecker just holding us up, I paused my music to see what this Asian douchebag was going on about that was making me even later for work. Sure enough this fucking idiot was arguing with the bus driver, but all he was saying in his defense, in that way that Asians do, was "no" "no" "no". What the fuck? You're holding a bus full of people up, so you can argue with bus driver because he disagrees on which brand of shuttlecocks are the best for high school badminton? Fucking inconsiderate piece of shit.

Well since that was pretty long and suprisingly uninteresting i'll briefly touch on #2) Selfish people. I was raised well and despite was borderline alcoholism and self destructive tendencies, I am a good person. I often put myself before others and that's probably why i'm in the position I am in now. But some people just look out for themselves, which I mean is what you have to do in todays toilet of a society we live in, but as much as you have to live for yourself, you have to be considerate for others too. Maybe it's just me and i'm too soft for this hard world, but sometimes it seems like most people would rather kick you while you're down rather than pick you up. Don't get my cynical analysis wrong, there are some good people in my life and some good people out there, but it just seems for every one person that is there to help you out, there is 3 more waiting to use and abuse them as soon as they turn around. Maybe i'm just jaded.

Keep it real. Oh and listen to Teenage Bottlerocket, they rule.

JP